Let's try this again

So over the past couple of years I have started and never finished multiple posts. I read alot of blog post, but I have not had the courage to post one of my own yet. I know you all can barely containg your excitement.

At the beginning of 2013 I was so excited about the "new beginning" I was getting with the start of the new year. Well unfortunately that feeling quickly disappeared. This year has already been filled with heartache and sadness. I lost my only living grandfather on January 8th. I have always carried a special place in my heart for my 2 granddad's. They were the guys in my life that were supportive and always provided a safe haven, they weren't the ones to disciple or get mad when I did crazy things in my teenage years. They provided an unconditional love that is different from any other that I have in my life. So it has been extremely difficult to jump start my motivation when I am carrying so much grief around. I am very aware that many people have much more difficult situations, but I find that regardless everyone has a battle to fight everyday, and each is unique and equally important.

Now that we are 4 weeks into January, I find myself revisiting goals I have had for myself in the past, and evaluating my success. I am turning 30 this year, and feel like I have alot of living still left to do. When I looked at my Granny at my Papa's funeral, I realized that I wanted the kind of love that they have/had. They were together for 65 years and would still sit together all day in silence because they were content just being together. They didn't force any feelings or conversation, just happy to still have each other. My Papa did not die young, he lived a very full 94 years, but experiencing a loss I feel compelled to look at my health and see if I am doing everything I can to ensure I have a very full life, however long it maybe. I want to live, experience, and feel all of my life. I think I have alot of work to do both with my physical health and mental. I joined Rogue Running September of 2010 and it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. My amazing coach and future olympian, Scotty, has helped reach the finishing line for 2 full marathons and one half. This community is so supportive, they provide a refuge for anything I have going on in my life. I go there and forget about the stress of work, the stress of family, I just run!!! I have met and run with so many amazing people and learned so much about myself through this process!

With that being said, this blog will chronicle my journey back to health, physical and mental!! I look forward to sharing this part of myself with anyone that might for some random reason be interested. 

Meg